Identity Crisis: Why Defining Yourself by Your Career Is a Problem

ARTHUR BROOKS: These days, you can't get anywhere without having a big argument about identity politics.

I'm this.

You're that.

I'm a Democrat.

You're a Republican.

I'm a liberal, you're a conservative, whatever it happens to be.

And those sorts of identities are critically important.

A lot of people in business-- they shy away from those identity politics discussions, but they have identity politics all their own.

They have an identity as a successful person.

They have an identity that revolves around their excellence in their job.

Who are you?

A father and a grandfather.

I'm a husband.

But when people ask me that question, I say, I'm a professor at the Harvard Business School.

Why?

Because that's my identity.

OK.

That's a way to identify myself, to be sure.

But if that's how I see me, that's a real problem, isn't it?

That strips away the really important things that I have in my life.

For those who see their identity as being a successful professional-- specifically successful-- that's an identity based on fear, isn't it?

We all have fears.

I mean, I have fears.

It's normal to be afraid of things.

But a fear of an attack on your identity, that's actually a death fear.

That's important.

Only 20% of the population is actually afraid of dying.

But a lot of people who are really good at what they do-- a lot of my students, a lot of the people watching this-- they're desperately afraid of failing at work.

That leads to a lot of behavior that's not very healthy, as a matter of fact-- that stripped down, cardboard cutout version of oneself, which is not good for you, it's not good for your relationships.

People ask me this all the time, who are extremely successful in business, as a matter of fact, who are afraid of failure.

And they say, look, I need to get over this, but I don't want to fail.

What do you recommend?

I actually have an exercise for that.

It's called the Maranasati death meditation, adapted for professional failure.

It actually comes from Theravada Buddhism on the southern tier of Asia, where the Buddhists would practice a contemplation of their own death.

If you go into a Buddhist monastery in Thailand, or Vietnam, or Myanmar, Sri Lanka, you'll often find that the walls are adorned with photos of corpses in different states of decay.

And you're like, wow, that's really morbid.

It's not, it turns out.

What happens is that the monks and nuns will contemplate those photos and they will look at each one and say, that is me and that is me.

And they'll go through this Maranasati nine-part death meditation where they contemplate different stages of a body and a body in different states of decomposition.

They'll say, that's me, that's going to be me.

That's me.

Why?

Because they're exposing themselves to the truth of their own mortality such that they can transcend it and actually be fully alive right now.

You see how healthy that is, right?

Well, for people who are desperately afraid of the death of their identity as a successful person, they need to be exposed to that reality as well.

Because the truth of the matter is-- I don't care who's watching this, I don't care how successful you are-- the party is going to finish, man.

It's not going to last forever.

And you have to be comfortable with that so you can fully be alive and involved in what's going on in your life today, otherwise, you'll be immobilized by the fear of something that paradoxically, is the most normal, most predictable thing in your whole life, which is this is going to stop.

I recommend putting together a little nine-part meditation where you say starting off saying, I feel like I'm losing my edge at work.

I don't know.

My decision-making isn't as crisp as it once was and people are starting to notice it.

Step two might be people are starting to make remarks about the fact that I'm losing a step.

Step three might be I'm thinking the board is starting to talk about my replacement and they're not including me in the discussions.

Step four is I'm pretty sure that the end is coming for my career.

I'm pretty sure.

I don't want it to come, but I'm pretty sure it's coming.

Step five is I've just gotten the word that I have to retire, even though it's not what I wanted to do.

Step six might be.

Yeah, I kind of got forced out.

And the worst part is I don't think people remember me for what I used to do.

They just think of me as the guy who got who got forced out of the job.

Step seven is I just went back to my workplace and-- it's only six months-- but a lot of people are new and they didn't know who I am.

Step eight is I moved away and now the people that I talk to-- they just think of me as a retired person.

They don't even-- they don't even ask about what I used to do.

And step nine might be, most days I don't even think about what I used to do.

I'm just living a different life at this point.

Now, I realize that sounds really negative, but it isn't.

It's normal.

Think about those things for two minutes each.

Do that for three weeks and you'll be a different person.

Why?

Not because you failed-- that's not even failure, by The way.

Just normal life.

You will no longer be afraid.

You will no longer be afraid of these things actually happening to you because they will have happened to you in your mind.

They will have happened to you in your heart.

And you'll be comfortable with the fact that you have a trajectory of your success and the value that you're trying to create.

And when it's over, you're going to submit because that's the only choice.

And then you'll be at peace.

Everybody needs to manage their own life like a project and understand that your skills and interests are going to change, to do things on purpose, to recognize that the good times are not going to last forever.

And you have to engineer new good times under different circumstances.

That's now what I talk about with people who are getting older, and that's the advice I'm taking for myself.

And, I don't know, I-- I'm actually at peace for the first time in a long time.